Writings of a Mad Mind

Hi everybody!

An update from Kira Land.... J dumped me a little over two weeks ago, after we had to leave our apartment because we couldn't afford it anymore(FUCK HIM!!!!) and I'm currently living at my parents house. And I suddenly understand my 15 year old baby brother a lot more.

My little brother, I'm gonna call him Squirt here(he's about two inches taller than me now), is diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome. He's well functioning in a 'normal' setting, and it's mostly just small signs that he has Aspergers. My little sister, age 8, I'm gonna call her Brat, has ADD. She's also rather well functioning. But together....

Brat is very smart, and rather manipulative. Very good at breaking out the tears when things aren't going her way, and very good at living up to her nickname. Squirt is usually very calm, but Brat has a way of pushing all of his buttons. And when she does, Squirt loses his rather impressive temper. Brat then runs to our parents, crying, and about 90% of the time they just blame him without hearing his side. I'm not saying our parents don't fight for him, they do, but mostly only for the things he needs outside the house. When it comes to confrontations between Squirt and Brat it feels as if I'm the only one on Squirt's side, and it's very frustrating.

I understand that my parents aren't in an easy place, but FUCK! They saw what this sort of behaviour did to me. They did almost the same thing with me when I was his age. I had a lot to struggle with when I was his age, and my parents sorta just pushed me aside for him, and then Brat when she was born. I ended up fighting a very deep depression, I was actually admitted to the hospital for treatment, and now they're doing it to Squirt. He has issues, many issues right now, and our parents barely know half of it. I sat down with him yesterday and I just offered to listen, and EVERYTHING came rushing out. I asked him if he had talked with mom and dad about this, and he told me that they were too busy with Brat to listen to him.

I just told them that I need to speak with them alone. Without Squirt or Brat. I just... I have no idea how to talk with them about this without loosing my own nasty temper. Squirt doesn't have his temper from strangers.

I know that I've practically made Brat seem like a manipulative little monster so far, but she's not. She has her own issues because of the ADD, but she's also one of the sweetest little girls I know. She's just very gifted at pushing people's buttons, and I know that she doesn't always do it on purpose, but there is a reason why I always call her a brat.

I apologise for unloading all of this on you guys, but I needed to get this of my chest. I'm going to hide back under my covers with my tea now that I've vented, and maybe the world will make a little more sense once I've gotten more than two hours of sleep.

Hugs
Kira

Do you have some weird guilty pleasure concoction that makes people look at you funny?

I have several - some barely makes any sense to me,let alone the people around me. I'm currently eating a bowl of cottage cheese with raisins mixed in and drinking orange juice with a little lemon juice in it - and J is shaking his head at me, wondering if I've lost my marbles.(I have, but that's another story X3)

so what's your guilty pleasure? come and share - we're all mad here =3

You never really notice how much random crap you got laying around until you have to pack it down. I mean this is getting ridiculous - I've packed three boxes and 5 bags... And I'm not done yet! WTELF Kira??? Why do you have so much junk???

This is kinda freaking me out, but I can't wait. J and I get the keys to our apartment the 1st next month and I'm super nevous about moving in together. I'm terrified that we find out we can't stand each other, or that we drive the other one nuts, but I also have these butterflies in my stomach that us pure joy... I guess we have to wait and see

WARNING - this post is born from a tired mind after 24 hours of being awake and unable to sleep

So I made a new friend this weekend... only not. I was out with my mates, getting CK drunk because his biological mother passed away from cancer wendsday afternoon, and this girl walks up and starts hitting on my boyfriend. I actually sorta like it when other girls(or guys XD) hits on him(though he only truly seems to mind it when it's the fellas XD) and I get to feel all smug at their looks when he turns them down and then kisses me. But this broad doesn't seem to get the hint, and even when J kissed me she brushed it of as us just being 'super affectionate friends'(that was actually the words she used, the bimbo). So I may have, sorta challenged her to a game of gay chicken... the look on her face when my hands started wandering - WIN!!!! when she hastily backed away from me, and with the guys trying not to laugh, the air-head finally seems to get that I minded her pressing her non existing breasts into J's face and trying to put his hand under her barely there skirt. It may have been slightly cruel what I said to her, but it was so worth it when she stomped of to the guys laughter.

And random though - is it just me or has christmas suddenly snuck up on EVERYBODY? not even my mother-in-law who, has a habit of putting up nisser(a scandinavian thing) everywhere on December 1st, has barely put up anything... But \o/ YAY for snow!!! It seems like we might actually get a white christmas this year in Denmark!!! *twirls* I'm so happy!!! It's so comforting to be putting around in my small apartment in my PJs with my huge ass mug of tea and just watching the pretty outside my window. Even with my Retarded Goldfish Morning Memory Syndrome™ the snow is very calming and pretty - though my room-mate had to stop me from going outside barefooted this morning, because I wanted to, and I'm quoting him 'cause I don't remember, "Go dance with the pretty snow flakes, so pretty, like diamonds," unquote... Retarded Goldfish Morning Memory Syndrome™ strikes again!!!

I swear for like the first hour I really have the memory, and attention span, of a retarded goldfish - it's really sort of embarrassing, the crap I sometimes get up to in the mornings! I once told a friend of mine that I though he looked like a stretched out, discoloured leprechaun <--- WTF me? <(o.0)> what's wrong with you brain?????

Anyhow this is Kira signing off - I will conquer you sleep, I will!!!

I was just mucking about in some of the old kradamadness posts(and can I just inject how awesome it is too see my auto-correct know kradamadness???) and I just wanted to share my love for that crazy-ass place and the awesome people in it!!! I seriously love you guys and the community - love how there's no such thing as too weird or any 'you can't write that!', and how craziness is in fact encouraged. I mean... I wrote a fic with them as bunnies and people just aww'ed - and I think we're the only place where sentences such as 'needs more werefox' and 'octopuses - YAY!' Actually happen, and the term fancake is taken literally!

So, yeah - I love you guys and I'm so thankful that I know you!

Churchbells should not, and I repeat, NOT be allowed to ring at 7 freaking AM on a Saturday morning. I can handle the normal chime when it hits the hour - but THIS crap is unforgivable! It only just stopped. That's almost 10 minutes of ringing!!!! Once again I can handle that on Sundays when it rings to service - but not at this hour on a Saturday! It bloody damn well woke me up - and now I can't fall back to sleep!! This is unforgivable!!!!

Do you know what was sent out today? MY COPY OF TRESPASSING!!!!!!!*flails*
\o/

and hopefully my copy of 'Thank You Camellia' will also soon be sent \o/

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Originally posted by nyxmidnight at Why SOPA is dangerous, an explanation of the bill

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? Since I LOATHE eggnog, the answer will have to be Chocolate

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? Wrapping FTW!

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? White! The coloured ones makes my fingers itch to tear things down!

5. When do you put your decorations up? In the beginning of the month(first advent sunday)

6. What is your favorite holiday dish? Risengrød and blood-sasusage. Risengrød is a traditional Danish dish, and it's a sort of rice porridge, served with cinnamon sugar and a spoonful of butter. Sounds weird, but I love it!

7. Favorite holiday memory as a child? Baking all sorts of christmas cookies and the like with my family

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? I never really believed in Santa, but when I was little I believed that we a a nisse(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tomte) living in our attic, and he would be the one to bring me the presents that would be in my stocking every morning(it's a family tradition to leave a small present in the child's stocking every morning). I think I was around nine years old when I stopped believing in that he was comming with presents for me, but the magic of nisser have never really left my heart.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? In Denmark we celebrate Christmas on Christmas Eve, so yes, all our presents are opened on Christmas Eve

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree? With my mom in the morning of the 24th of December. We decorate it with glass ornaments, some of them back from when my Grandmother was a young girl

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? Love Snow, hate the shovelling

12. Can you ice skate? ... shakily

13. Do you remember your favorite gift? I was about 3 years old and my uncle gave me this teddy bear. I called it Frøken Brun(Miss Brown), and this day today, almost 18 years late I still love that bear.

14. What’s the most important thing about the holidays for you? Spending time with those I love.

15. What is your favorite holiday dessert? Ris a la mande. Sound French, but the dish is 100% Danish!

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Decorating the tree with my mom, and baking.

17. What tops your tree? A star made of tiny pearls that my Great-Grandmother gave my mom, when my mom turned 16.

18. Which do you prefer giving or receiving? Picking out the presents for those I love.

19. Candy Canes? Love Them!

20. Favorite Christmas show? ... Disney's Christmas Show

21. Saddest Christmas song? A Danish Christmas song called 'En rose så jeg skyde'(I saw a rose blossoming). It's not really a sad christmas song, it's very beautiful, but I sang it when my Gran was buried two years ago.

22. What is your favourite Christmas song? 'Der er noget i luften'(There is something in the air) another Danish Christmas song.

23. Favorite Christmas movie? Nightmare Before Christmas!

24. How long do you leave up Christmas decorations? Until after New Years Eve

25. What kind of cookies do you leave for Santa? ... I've never left cookies for Santa, But I've left Risengrød for our nisse!